Dreams are odd, aren’t they? In this one, I watched the lifespan of an insignificant fetus, and yet knew I was the embryo. As I swam in the largeness of a womb, my indistinct form floated at will, content with my surroundings. I had all that I needed for life, so I drifted, formless, and unconstrained, fully content in the scope of my world.
As I continued to watch, I grew. First, my eyes, then my ears, gained shape and distinction, imperceptibly enlarging into a recognizable image. I saw head, limbs, and torso gradually expand until my developing figure was large enough to stretch against the translucent membrane of the amniotic sac. As I grew into the space around me, I began to feel constricted and wanted out. Somehow I knew that the womb was the world, and it was no longer comfortable to me (Hebrews 13:14).
Then I awoke.
As I ponder the significance of my dream, I’ve discovered I’m not the only believer feeling increasingly cramped in today’s world. What appeared so roomy and spacious to us as new believers is now severely constricting our growth. The larger we grow in Christ, the more uncomfortable we feel.
Like an enlarging fetus, we’ve become aware of our Father’s voice. As the world crowds in on us, we begin to long for “on the outside,” desiring a better space than this one, “that is a heavenly one” (Hebrews 11:16). This Spirit-world that we currently know only faintly will one day be sight. Right now, we only know in part, but one day, we shall know fully just as the Father already fully knows us (1 Corinthians 13:12).
“All around us, we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it’s not only around us; it’s within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We’re also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don’t see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy” (Romans 8:22-25, The Message).
But, we have a definite advantage over an unborn child. Our Father allows us a present connection with the wide Spirit-world to which we are going. It is merely to go to Him by faith in prayer. “The moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good” (Romans 8: 26-28, The Message).
“Thank You, Father, that although we often feel small and inadequate, You are granting us the very best in prenatal care. You are an experienced Father, for Jesus was Your “first-born of all creation” (Colossians 1:17). Christ opened the way, and now You know precisely how to care for us during our time of gestation. You have granted us everything we need for life, and have given to us all that You initially gave Your First-born (2 Peter 1:3; John 17:10). How could we think that our development has any lack? Open our ears to recognize Your voice and connect with You by stretching out boldly in prayer. You are a good, good Father. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”