Thank You for Your kind and gentle words regarding my weak faith. Sometimes, I wonder how You can be so patient – especially when my sins continue to revolve around the same issues year after year.
I confess to You that my thoughts haven’t been on trust, but on worry. I’ve worried about Ebola, our government, our church and my kids. I’m ashamed to admit that I tend to worry about these issues only as they relate directly to me. While they still remain somewhere else, I can completely disregard them. It’s only when they threaten to alter my own life that they scare me.
The last I heard, 4,447 people have died in West Africa with Ebola and yet, I haven’t prayed once for those families. Terrorism has caused numerous deaths and myriads of refugees, but I rarely spend time in prayer for those victims.
Instead, I shut off those thoughts by turning to some form of entertainment. What an ugly blight to a heart that You’ve filled with love.
So, to You, O Lord, I lift up my soul. Forgive me for my self-centered thoughts. Thank You that Your conviction is always to turn my thoughts around, not guilt me (John 16:13). You are always willing and ready to forgive (Psalm 86:4-5) because Your purpose for Your children is that they walk in Light, not self-condemnation. What a blessing.
Teach me to pray (Luke 11:1). Take every thought that comes to me today and reveal how it differs from Your own (Isaiah 55:8). I give You each distraction. Remind me to grab each random thought and lay it at Your feet before it wanders down the path of anxiety (2 Corinthians 10:5). Fill me with the knowledge of Your will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding so that my thoughts and prayers would please You in every way (Colossians 1:9-10).
Train my ear to pick up the spiritual frequency of what You and Jesus are already discussing (Romans 8:34), so that I can boldly join in. The riches of heaven lie unused because of lack of intercessors. May I be faithful to make multiple trips daily to bring down the heavenly deliveries awaiting those in need. You have unlocked the resources, now may I remember to go pick them up (Matthew 18:18).
Prick many of Your children to join me, O Lord. I need lots of help.
May the words of our mouths and the meditations of our hearts be acceptable to You. You are our Redeemer (Psalm 19:14). Selah.
photo courtesy of Sara Jeng Grewar.