Conflicted and Anxious

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Dear Mentor,

I really want to clearly portray the Life of Christ within me, but it seems that I slip up all too frequently. What’s wrong with me?

                                                                          – Conflicted

Dear Conflicted,


There is nothing wrong with you. You are just walking down the path on which so many have traveled. There is a balance of living out Who He is within you when you still have perfection tendencies. 


Although Romans 8 is printed after Romans 7, they often happen at the same time.  You have come to realize that nothing good dwells in your flesh. In order to truly walk in Spirit, that fact must remain evident before you.


At one minute, you feel wretched. You are sick of the body of death that continues to hang onto so tightly.


“Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death?” (Romans 7:24).


Yet, when you turn toward His voice, He is constantly reminding you of His Presence within you. “I am your righteousness,” He whispers (Romans 8:4).


How thankful you are. But in the very midst of your thankfulness for being set free, you realize ”on the one hand, I myself with my mind am serving the law of God, but on the other, with my flesh the law of sin” (Romans 7:25).


Here is the one hand. And then the other. The one serves Him faithfully. The other does not. Both continue side by side within you until you are finally released from this life.  Your focus must be upon the absence of condemnation, not the absence of perfection.

So how do you live in the tension? Slowly, step by step with the spiritual action of faith. No magic formula. No brilliant gleam of self. It’s a process in which you fall hardest when you rest on the plateau.


Heretofore, how you look to others has been your motivation for life. The more you allow Him to reveal the self-life within you, the more you will discover that those roots are deep. You hate the ugliness because you want to be beautiful. He desires you hate the me-motivation because you want Him to shine. Becoming invisibly transparent is the only way that others can truly see Who He is within you.


Don’t despair. Rather, rejoice. Your continued weakness is just what He has ordered. Thank Him for it and ask that He show you His Presence. I’ve seen Him within you. Now, I’m praying that you will see Him yourself.


                                            – Grace and Peace, Your Mentor


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