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Holy Father, 

 

How little I rest in You. My soul is like a hummingbird, flitting from flower to flower, truth to truth – expending most of the spiritual energy I derive by just skimming over Your Word, rather than drinking deeply. Yet, You still hold out the Sabbath rest before me, saying “This is the day to rest” (Hebrews 4:9,7). 

 

Because I so rarely stop to drink in the sweet nectar of Your Presence, I assume that You must thus be hiding Yourself from me. I weigh Your work by what I feel and am easily discouraged because I don’t find an immediate sensation. Seems You must always remind me that You are greater than my wavering heart (1 John 3:20).

 

My mind also lies at fault. Even my loftiest thoughts cannot perpetuate Your Presence. I think and think – trying to fan up a flame of sincere intelligence. New “spiritual” exercises deceive me. I assume that doing stuff for You is the same as waiting before You. I seek goodness within myself rather than within You, my Savior.  I’m sorry.

 

In resting, I’m like a little child, first laid in her bed. I sing, I talk, I toss – then get up to explain that I didn’t need the nap after all. Nevertheless, You know my frame. Know me to be far weaker than I could ever imagine. You realize that without this time of rest, I’ll be incorrigible, crying and whining at the least provocation. And so, You tuck me back in, sometimes quite sternly, seeing ahead to what I truly need.

 

Resting. Silence. Waiting. 

 

Such foreign concepts when it comes to spirituality.

 

When I do set my will to rest in You, I blame You for purposely dragging Your feet as You don’t immediately do what I want. I’m  occupied with what my obedience should “get” me, rather than just resting in Who You are. Impatience is a tell-tale sign that true resting isn’t taking place.  I must surrender even the timing unto You. 

 

Remind me that only You can accomplish what concerns me (Psalm 57:2). Reveal these truths to me in such a way that they permeate my very core. Teach me to allow every spiritual muscle to so relax before You, that faith takes over my every response. Help me to stop working on my faith and allow You to simply take over. Selah. 

 

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Thousands of parents, including Mark and I, have taught their children to drive. 

 

Our oldest daughter had to wait until she came home for college to begin the learning process, because Taiwan drivers aren’t eligible for a license until age 18.

 

Talk about a crash course. Thankfully, her one accident didn’t injure much – just the garage. 

 

But over the course of a few months, Hannah did learn to drive. She gave us her attention and a teachable heart and in turn, we (eventually) gave her the keys to the car. 

 

It’s the same with our Father.

 

When we give Him a teachable heart,

He gradually grants us the keys of the kingdom. 

 

It’s all a matter of the will – His and ours.

 

“God’s will” can be a little confusing. Maybe the better word is resolve

 

As He sees that our resolve matches His resolve,

then we can ask whatever is on our heart and it will be given to us (John 15:7).

 

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.” (Psalm 37:4). 

 

When we make His determination our own, then we can have whatever we want….because we will want only what He does. 

 

A successful Christian is one that presents a teachable spirit to Him daily, not one that never makes a mistake. 

 

A successful prayer life is one that is willing to hear His best and accept it as best. You can ask for absolutely anything and keep on asking. If it is someting that is also His resolve, He will grant the request (John 14:14). If it’s not, He will open your eyes to see what is. 

 

If any man is willing to do His will, he shall know” (John 7:17). 

 

There it is in black and white. You have His rock-solid guarantee. 

 

So how do we know if we are really willing? What if the impulse is just a left-over from our old thought pattern?

 

1. The Spirit helps our weakness” (Romans 8:26). You see, the Spirit can see our innermost being and searches our heart to find the places where we have given the reins to the Father. He is not only diligent to find the faintest inkling of a submissive heart, He also gives us a lot of benefit of the doubt. As easily as a child can distinguish between an Easter egg and a rock, the Spirit can detect willingness. When He finds it, He rushes in to alert the Father, so that our prayers can be answered (Romans 8:27;1 John 5:14-15). 

 

2. God is greater than our heart and knows all things” (1 John 3:20). Yes, our heart may still be on automatic condemn-mode. But, as we continue to turn even our feelings over to Him, He will regulate our heart to beat in sync with His. It takes some time to allow our hearts to be assured and persuaded His way (1 John 3:19). He doesn’t have a problem waiting for it. We shouldn’t either.   

 

Are you willing to do His will?

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More on this topic:

A Prayer of the Will

Submission to Persuasion

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