I query
I question
Problem looming, awkward and heavy
Obstacle mounting
Burdensome.
I puzzle
I ponder
Thoughts upturning, spilling and staining
Logic fleeting
Incomprehensible.
I brood
I bleed
Emotions surging, turbulent and shifting
Sentiment boiling
Irrepressable.
I lament
I languish
Character evanescent, evaporating and ephemeral
Intention inadequate
Hopeless.
A breath.
A wisp.
A vapor.
I stop
I squint
Dilemma hovering, damp and stagnant
Complication suffocating
Cumbersome.
I inspect
I introspect
Reflection contaminated, smeared and blackened
Rationale unstable
Inconsistent.
I glance
I glimspe
Passion despairing, angry and despondent
Agitation stirred
Apathetic.
I fix my eye
I focus
Fleshliness stilled, hushed and silenced
Resolve faltering
Tremulous.
A fragment.
A stanza.
A Voice.
I clutch
I clasp
Mountain diminished, overshadowed and relative
Perspective altered
Expanding.
I grasp
I grapple
Understanding broadened, swelling and spreading
Wisdom increasing
Persisting.
I hold
I hug
Hope returning, slowly and silently
Faith prevailing
Metamorphic.
I seize
I scuffle
Determination rebounding, steadily and progressively
Assurance restored
Expectant.
We pray although we know not how.
He intends to pass by, but we reach out
Grappling, wrestling and will not let go.
We pray because we can do no else.
He desires our depth, but we comprehend not
Arms flailing, hands clawing, heart pounding,
We pour out our souls and find it messy beyond belief.
Yet, our perseverance is accredited to us as faith.
Our propinquity with Him, regardless of our emotion —
Our presence proves our persistence.
And with this He is pleased.
Photography by Sara Jeng Grewar. Follow her on Instagram.